What if, I thought
(After all this time)
all these medications that have been prescribed to me
Could bring back the normal self of mine
No More Whimsical Mind
Pure immediacy in the fullness of things
No ego–no substance
To be able to reach mental clarity and attitude
(The absence of the ego or limited self)
The 3 marks of existence:
Impermanence, unsatisfactoriness, the non-self in ‘experiences’
‘Divalproex’
59.4cm x 84.1cm
Charcoal and pencil on paper
Could the new prescription ever make me sane again?
(Is it even a cure?)
''Alprazolam''
59.4cm x 84.1cm
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Could it possible to devoid these issues for the mind?
(I had enough with the repression)
'Quetiapine'
59.4cm x 84.1cm
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Could these white pills ever swallow those voices of my (everyday) nightmares?
'Aripiprazole'
59.4cm x 84.1cm
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Could the new medication ever make me get the mental clarity?
(Remind me again, what is mental clarity?)
'Escitalopram''
59.4cm x 84.1cm
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Could these happy pills make me relief (again) at one moment?
'Lorazepam'
59.4cm x 84.1cm
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Could it limit myself to make any disturbances for self and others?
''Fetus''
42cm x 59.4cm
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At the age of 25, I begin to question, “what makes human, HUMAN?”
A matter of question on how human develop on his/her own.
As a human, we don’t know when and how are we going to feel complete, fulfill, or done (as one of a full human.)
True how internal and external factors in life will correlate between one to another and affect our development, but we tend to forget and didn’t realize of one crucial element to sustain our progress.
The willingness.
Are there any?