For once, I have this determined mind to heal.
For once, I have this determined mind to be better.
For once, I have this determined mind to be okay (again.)
For once, I've tried.
For once, can you just be proud of me?
The Sun Against My Razor Blade
80x100cm
Oil on Canvas
The struggles on choosing the right coping mechanisms are always the hardest. It’s always about time, whether you want it to be instant but in an unhealthy coping mechanism or with the patience that you need through some healthy coping mechanism. It’s the question on how do you actually release your adrenaline and serotonin towards your chemical imbalances in your brain.
Home and Belong
100x120cm
Oil on Canvas
What is HOME?
Perhaps, the existential life crisis thoughts on people is actually the thought of knowing the fact that humans exist in this world because they paid in blood from their mother’s womb. But sometimes as their souls live in this world, using the body of themselves, the odd feeling on questioning ‘where should I belong?’ come to exist in their mind and manipulate them so they don’t even feel like living their life to the fullest.
Seven Layers on Healing
100x120cm
Oil on Canvas
Just like the seven important layers on skin, the healing process consists of some layers which protects a being’s most vulnerable part of their sanity.
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Aware and identify with the core problems
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Embracing with the pain and anger feelings
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Coping Mechanisms – through healthy and the unhealthy
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Patience
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Focusing on self (not with the selfish or egoistic ways)
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Process and progress
7. Determined mindset: on keep trying
The Conversation
80x100cm (Each Canvases)
Oil on Canvas
On Women: Lack of Emotional Intelligence.
Women tend hard to manage problems on themselves which causing scepticism on emotions (love, desire, anger, anxiety and professional ambition), and that’s why they lack of sensitivity to the moods of others or even readiness for surprising things.
On Men: Lack of Emotional Translations.
Men sometimes find it difficult to be a good listener and wisely interpreting, proactively picking up for hints on what women said.
“I See The Desperation on Your Side”
80x100cm
Oil on Canvas
“So that’s why you are being undecisive lately. The heavy layering towards the canvas portrays the confusion on your mind. The red paint that you put through your rough brushstrokes, symbolize your inner pain or something that actually haunt and annoyed your mind. You need to stop but you don’t know when to stop. It seems that either this life or the condition of yours will never be enough for you. Eventually, you get the distance between your soul and your body.”
-I am so sorry if you feel this way-